beat down the kinks

I am not where I wanted to be in my life,
but I do not want to be anywhere else.

Do I feel that?
Wait a minute, is THAT a sense of accomplishment i feel in my bones??
This cant be real. Am I actually satisfied where I am at?
Of course (dont get me wrong) there are kinks in the system that still need to be worked out
.. but on the plus side... I have this slight
fascination
with these dirty beat-down kinks I speak of.
I admire the charm they require to slow down the whole operation of a machine.
And at the same time
on the opposite end of the spectrum, use profanity because they slow me down
and cause what seems to be chaos.
It all works out (always does),
and by the end of every catastrophic event, I actually find myself going over
the nonsense of a time span in my head and lapping it all up.
"Encore!' "That was fabulous!" "A real must-see for the family!" 'This year's blockbuster!"
And re-live it again.